Finding a New Tribe

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In the comments to my post yesterday, a particular sentence stood out.  It was: “Hope that you find your posse”.  The author must be psychic (or incredibly insightful)!

One of the big reasons I used to drink was to overcome my social anxiety.  I’m not at all comfortable around groups of people, even if I know some of them.  In more personal situations, I was a pretty terrible friend.  Alcohol took priority over many things and friendships were one of them.  The most problematic issue that lingers now is that I’m never sure that people will like me once they get to know me.  I’m damaged goods, I’m quirky and, of course, I can’t drink.  I live in an area of the U.S. that is overrun by craft breweries, mom and pop distilleries and small, boutique wineries.  Seriously, throw a rock from my porch and you’ll hit one.  Each and every one of my remaining friends seems to be a connoisseur of some kind of alcohol.  This “hobby” completely permeates the environment.

Yes, I met some very nice folks in my outpatient rehab program, but none of us connected on a long-term friendship level.

Yes, I tried AA.  Repeatedly.  Co-ed groups.  Female only groups.  Groups at homes.  Groups at churches.  Groups at restaurants.  I participated and the people I met were nice enough, but I never fit in (or let myself fit in).  I did find one group with promise, but quickly discovered that an estranged family member had joined two weeks prior.  I was never going to be able to share my story freely and without judgment.  It was crushing at the time.

Where does a married, forty-something work from home mom of tweens/teens make friends that will appreciate my sobriety and strangeness?

If you know, I’m all ears!

 

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  1. I live in a similar area. It’s all about alcohol. I’m pretty sure the locals here coined the phrase beer thirty. It’s difficult to stay sober surrounded by that mentality, but I think you are on the right track. We just need new friends. Hugs to you. 🤗

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  2. It’s such a difficult situation to be in – I can relate to so much of what you are saying here. I also struggle with social anxiety and alcohol definitely eased that for me. My entire social circle was because of the craft beer scene that I was involved in where I live. All of my friends work for, own, or are involved in breweries and wineries in some other way. It’s been a challenge for me to find a new tribe and I took the leap and started my own sober Meetup group because none existed in my area. It was terrifying for me to do, really, truly terrifying – but I’m so glad that I took the leap. While it’s still small, and still scary sometimes, it’s getting so much easier and I’ve met a few fantastic women who were in need of the same thing. It sounds like you are continuing to try a number of different avenues, I would say keep it up – groups shift and evolve all the time, so what didn’t work once could potentially work in another way in the future. Only do what you are comfortable with, but I’ve learned that stepping outside of my box a bit has paid off in tremendous ways.

    Besides what you are already trying, just keep writing. Keep reading and responding to blogs. Jump on Instagram or Twitter (if you aren’t already there) – the recovery community is huge on social media, and so supportive. I’m surprised at the connections that I’ve been able to make just through online resources. While I feel that in person connection is extremely important, these online connections have been so helpful and in some cases, are leading to ‘in real life’ connections, too. I wish you the best in your journey and look forward to reading more! -Tracie

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    1. Thank you for the wonderful response!! I am amazed that you started your own Meetup – I wish I was that brave! There are a couple of sober Meetups in my area, but they don’t look very active. I did take the plunge and ask to join a local sober women’s FB group last week but they’ve not responded :(. I hadn’t thought about checking for groups on Instagram but will definitely do it now.

      I appreciate all the info and support / it means a lot!

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      1. Just FYI – I just sent you a message through your contact page. I heard a great podcast about community yesterday and thought of you. I sent the link in the contact. Have a great day!

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