Today, I Give Myself An “F”

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I like to think that I am a good parent. Not AMAZING but definitely doing my best with the tools I’ve been given. Especially since I quit drinking. Today, I failed in a huge way. I am embarrassed by some of the words that came out of my mouth. It was not anything to be proud of.

I suspect all parents have had days like this. Close your eyes and imagine that time your teenager pushed your last button (like perhaps in a public place, as it happened to me this morning) with a mix of selfishness and ingratitude and once you were both in the privacy of your car, you lost it. And, of course, immediately regretted how you behaved.

As a person in recovery, I’m trying hard to take responsibility for all of my actions and the reactions they cause. I did in this situation and I hope my teen and I both learned an important lesson: No matter how mad you get, it’s never worth saying things you will regret. It hurts everyone involved and chips away at respect and understanding. I can’t shake the sadness from this morning and I doubt she can either.

Today, I give myself an “F”. Tomorrow, I had better aim for an “A”. My kids’ deserve it.

3 thoughts on “Today, I Give Myself An “F”

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  1. but there’s always the follow up – where you both have a heart open conversation with each other after the heat of it all has dissipated. teens are terribly good at button pushing, without understanding the consequences. It will be okay… hugs to you.

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  2. I agree with bumpy. I hope you have that open conversation once it dies down and it will die down. I had something similar happen recently and things were said. Teens know how to hit us where it hurts. But for the most part, they realize we do love them and they come back around. All the better for it. Hugs!

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